Recently I have been a little stressed out. New insurance means the loss of Quinn's doctors and well, I am having a really hard time with it. I have learned to trust her doctors with something that I am very concerned with and have no power over; her health. I have been praying a lot recently that we will be ok and that we will get through this and find a new medical staff . I have been worrying so much more over Quinn's health, or I guess letting it worry me more since I won't have her AWESOME doctors to call on and help us out.
I have felt like no one really understands what I am going through. I am not saying that other mothers don't love their children as much as I love Quinn, but just that when having a child with special needs, it is different... Anyway, the other day at the grocery store this lady was there with her little daughter. We were standing in line and she just started to talk to me. She immediately told me about how her daughter was turning 2 and how she was premature and has had numerous health issues. She told me about how her daughter was in physical, speech and occupational therapy. (just like Quinn) I opened up a little and told her some about Quinn. She flatly said, "no one can understand what it is like to be in our situation until they are in our shoes". That is completely how I feel. Suddenly I felt like I was no longer alone. This complete stranger came up to me in line and told me exactly what I needed to hear and she seemed to be someone that "gets it". I know this might sound weird to some but I feel like she was in my line on purpose. I feel like she started to talk to me on purpose. It is odd how a complete stranger can make you feel so much better. All I needed to hear was that people have gone through what we are going through before and that they have made it out ok. I just wanted to hear that I wasn't the only one being strong only to hear the next doctor tell me that something else was wrong.
I know that we are being watched over. I know that Dan and I have been completely blessed with Quinn. Now I am just praying that we will be able to quickly find Quinn new doctors that love her as much as her old ones do.
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Michele, this is so touching to hear. I'm so glad your prayers were answered by running into that woman in the grocery store line. The Lord works in wierd ways and thru those around us. We'll continue to pray for you guys and that you'll find the most wonderful, kind doctors ever. Have you ever thought about joining some sort of support group in person or online for parents with children with disabilities. I can pretty much bet my life, there will be groups like that around where you live..You never know?? Love you Michele
Laura,
I have looked into groups online and haven't found any that don't meet like a billion times a week. Also, I met a few nice women at Quinn's Yoga classes but we just didn't hit it off. Hopefully in her new classes I can find a few women that I really click with.
The Lord loves her even more than you do...I know, that seems impossible. And he loves you more than you know. I know it was not merely coincidence that you wound up talking to this woman. I am so glad that she was able to bring you some peace. Love that Quinny...her doctors will love her too!
The Lord loves you Michele and knows your needs and Quinn's. Things happen for a reason. I'm happy you ran into this lady when you most needed to hear what she had to share. My prayers are with you and your family.
Love, A. Reenie
Your little Quinny is very loved by not just you and Dan but her Heavenly Father and it is so special how he looks after us. I don't know what you are going through, I know you have felt alone in this and it is so hard. I admire your strength and courage and just want you to know that I hope this new transisition goes smoothly... I am glad you were able to talk to that lady, it is so nice to have someone who understands. I'm glad it helped and I hope things get easier. miss and love you guys.
I was going to write what everyone else commented so I will just say I agree with all of them. You are right by we all can't understand exactly what you are going through. It must be so hard emotionally and physically. I am sure you ran into that lady at the store for a reason. Hopefully you will be able to find more people you can connect with that understand what you are going through. You all will be in our prayers for finding a good team of doctors that will love Quinn and provide her the best treatment she needs. I too feel that you guys are being watched over. Good luck with everything and we won't stop praying here for you all. Love you lots.
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