Recently I have been a little stressed out. New insurance means the loss of Quinn's doctors and well, I am having a really hard time with it. I have learned to trust her doctors with something that I am very concerned with and have no power over; her health. I have been praying a lot recently that we will be ok and that we will get through this and find a new medical staff . I have been worrying so much more over Quinn's health, or I guess letting it worry me more since I won't have her AWESOME doctors to call on and help us out.
I have felt like no one really understands what I am going through. I am not saying that other mothers don't love their children as much as I love Quinn, but just that when having a child with special needs, it is different... Anyway, the other day at the grocery store this lady was there with her little daughter. We were standing in line and she just started to talk to me. She immediately told me about how her daughter was turning 2 and how she was premature and has had numerous health issues. She told me about how her daughter was in physical, speech and occupational therapy. (just like Quinn) I opened up a little and told her some about Quinn. She flatly said, "no one can understand what it is like to be in our situation until they are in our shoes". That is completely how I feel. Suddenly I felt like I was no longer alone. This complete stranger came up to me in line and told me exactly what I needed to hear and she seemed to be someone that "gets it". I know this might sound weird to some but I feel like she was in my line on purpose. I feel like she started to talk to me on purpose. It is odd how a complete stranger can make you feel so much better. All I needed to hear was that people have gone through what we are going through before and that they have made it out ok. I just wanted to hear that I wasn't the only one being strong only to hear the next doctor tell me that something else was wrong.
I know that we are being watched over. I know that Dan and I have been completely blessed with Quinn. Now I am just praying that we will be able to quickly find Quinn new doctors that love her as much as her old ones do.