.the future.

I just applied to two different positions. (and I literally mean just) I am graduating in a few months and I really want to get a job right away. I know how difficult it is to find work currently and I figured that if I found something that I wanted, I might as well apply for it. It is funny, graduating with a business admin. degree is like a wild card in uno- really it can be whatever you want it to be. A while back my Dad asked me what I was planning on using my degree for. I had no idea. I think that I spouted off something about HR or something like that. However, I really didn't know until last Saturday morning.

I was sitting half asleep in a class and a "career counselor" came in to talk to us. I was getting annoyed with this women trying to explain how easy it really was to figure out what you were supposed to do with your life. She mentioned a whole slew of self examining career tests that we should all take. Yeah, I have taken them all and according to my personality and "likes" I should be a marine biologist or in retail. Um... no thank you. I don't care for science too much and well, retail isn't my life long dream. (although I DID have a lot of fun when I worked at the Home Depot but I digress) I have taken some tests that have told me that I need to be an entrepreneur and others that told me that I need the consistency of government jobs. Honestly, I think that I would do best in a structured job like within the government or in other large organizations.

Anyway, that is when it hit me. When I was sitting listening to this woman talk I got an envious feeling. She was viewed as an "expert" by everyone in the class (well except for sour ole me). She was super organized. She had color coded flags on her sheets that matched the colors that she used in each section of her powerpoint presentation. She was super structured and everything was arranged perfectly and I was getting excited. To some that don't know me so well, you might not understand but I am a complete control freak that needs and dare I say thrives on organization. I make endless lists. (sometimes even lists to remind myself to make lists) I function best when I have everything all lined up perfectly and all is clear. Dan makes fun of me for this but I actually now think that it is great.

I decided at that moment, while getting envious of this woman's incredible organizational system, that I needed to put this umm, nuance of mine to work... literally. I want to be an adviser. I want to help others become organized or if not that, do all of the work and tell them what they have to do. I want to work for a University's admissions office or Financial Aid office. I just applied for one of each of them. I would love to be an academic adviser but you need a masters for that. I sort of wish that the two jobs would be smooched into one as each of them has superior points. One is for my current school University of Baltimore in the admissions office. The job would be fun and I would be so proud to work for my school but the pay is well, not the best at all. Then the other job is for the financial aid office at Johns Hopkins University. The pay is better but it isn't my school. I most likely will not get either job since the market is so tough and I have been out of work for so long (Quinn is 3.5). However, I am starting to feel like myself again and it feels good.